Well, thoughts of your innermost girl trying to become her woman, and I don't mean that any other way but spiritual.

 

Men, ah yes, stereotypically not interested in relationships and only want a girls honey. And the female loves to give a taste so that the chase will never end.

 

It doesn't sound like your avoiding relationships just, as you said, trying before your buying.

 

Well all like different shapes and sizes. Most people judge us for having these preferences however we should embrace them if we are going to enjoy life. A lot of people find the body more attractive than the mind, and we can all say we’ve done that. Chosen a partner for little other than how they look to our most basic instincts.

 

I however have given this a little more though. You always see someone first for what they are like on the outside, you judge someone on first impressions and this opinion sticks unless constantly proven otherwise. If you were in a club for example, you cannot know what everyone is like on the inside so you judge it on this basic instinct. A lot of people would try to judge us for doing this even though they do it themselves. However I digress as my mind has also been deprived of sleep.

 

At the age of 21 I sometimes feel out of place among my own age group. The majority seem to be content with walking though the corridor of life without looking in any of the doors that lead from the direct route to the finish but I’m sure no matter how old or young I am I will always find this. Try to remember that it’s not always about the amount of years someone has had in this world but what they’ve done with that time.

 

That man you’re looking for is forever getting closer, don’t ever think twice about having fun opening them doors or letting others judge you for what you know is best. Once you find that someone you can spend the rest of forever with, you’ll know. Maybe not slap in your face, as I have found that the more you listen the more you hear and the more you look, the more you see.

 

That’s enough for now. I hope I’ve given food for thought.

 

See you soon my closest friend

 

- Someone who will be always be there when needed

Well. It's been all of two days since "we need to talk" and so we talked. Last night we had a heated debate, after he randomly text me, I had given him the pxssed off silent treatment all day. Text read: "Hey. Sat in car. Just bin to hairdressers. Thought i'd say hi."  I texted back after about 2 hours. As I never knew he'd texted me. Never expected it either, I'd been out for a run. To clear my head. And I apologised for not texting back earlier. Don't know why. So yes. We began a heated debate on msn. Which lasted about 2 1/2 hours. Maybe now he understands why I didn't speak to him. He should do, I explained at least 3 times that I can't be smiley and happy if someone I really do like has just told me they don't feel the same way. Hmfph. That was basically it. So I was going at like 11, and I said, "text me if we have resolved anythin" Me, thinking that he wouldn't text me, not first twice in one day. By my.oh.my, he did. Then his last text was at 'bout 12ish. THEN. I never thought it would get better. BUT THEN. He text me first this Morning AGAIN! I'm SO confused right now lmao! He says that he wants to see how Prom goes, and then get through Exams. (My ass, he'll be ass over when he sees me Friday night :P)

 

Then my Dad tells me the 1st Team Manager called. I'm not in the Cup Final Squad. I'm like, "He can shove it up his arse!" Before that, the washing machine broke. It blew up lmao! Smoked and everything!

 

So basically we're okay again. I think he figured some things out, and then added some stuff and I was there. Can't complain. I didn't do much, just told the truth really! I said sometimes people take risks. He said this Morning that I was right about the risk taking. He survived my pmt stress-age though. Which he didn't know he got, but yeah, he did! The ball is in my court now :P

 

Hope you have a good weekend. This week is gonna fly cos it's Prom on Friday! Now I can't wait for it. I told him last night that I didn't wanna go, he asked me whether we were still goin together. I felt like saying, "Are we hell as like" But I didn't wanna say anything, and I'm glad i never did cos now it's worked out pretty good for me :P

I don't think it's wrong to date younger men at all hon, in fact I always have!! I don't know why, maybe my playfullness and love of freedom has a role in that.  All you can do is to live how it makes you happiest, the choices are yours alone and no body else has the right to say what best for you because no one else lives your life. 

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Elle! Longtime no speak! Hope you had a good time on holiday, i was looking everyday to see if you had blogged then Croal reminded me you were off galavanting once again.

 

I have not much to report. In short ex number one wanted to get back with me, i said no and he went off with one of his mates exes! They remain together and are going on holiday! Ex number 2, (the one closest to my heart) remains single with no one in his life. Its my birthday next week, i am secretly hoping we get together on the night me and girls go out for it. Just for one night! It can't go that badly can it?

 

Two Bank Holidays later and lots of drinking and clubbing i am raring to go for the weekend ahead.

 

Hope you are well

 

xxx

I can certainly relate to dating younger guys since that is all I seem to be attracted to.  Neither am I looking for the short term but I suppose the advantage to my younger guys is that they are older than/same age as you.  Therefore I have some hope of getting a serious relationship from them.

 

I think your experience is not unique about finding guys that are not serious or not around for the long term.   I am not sure how you can change that experience.  To some degree it seems that dating is all about luck.  At this moment?  I have found some luck!  Eventually, you will run into your guy.  Perhaps you already have and you just don't know it.

 

Billie

I wish I knew the answers to all your questions...perhaps that'd help me answer mine.  I have the opposite of the guy thing going on, absolutely refusing to see anyone younger than me.  My summer fling comes back into town Sunday and won't be leaving--he's done with school.  He was in a couple of weekends ago...I have snuggling pictures that I look at and shake my head.  It seems I'm doomed to repeat the past.  I'm about to write an entry about me and my past repeats, I think, but...ANYWAY..

 

Dear Elle! You're back!  Tell me of your adventures and of the men you met!  I'm sure there are some good ones.  My life has been oddly eventful lately.  I should write about the good things instead of the bad ones.  I hope you've got some sleep, dearie...and you know...if you're up at 4 am, you can always call me.  It's only 11 here! ;)

 

much love,

Susan

It seems that we do our best thinking when we can't sleep.  I too have been doing that same as you.  I have been trying to figure out the relationship with Jason and I . He was my first and only love. we are slowly learning about each other.  Let's hope that we both get what we are looking for.

*HUGS*