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September 04

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This One's For The Beautiful Tyra x

"This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try..
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might be a second too late.."

Dear Gabrielle,

We all take some degree of risks.

Some drive to the edge of the cliff, dip their toes in the air and then decide to pull back. That defines risk taking for some people.

Others, jump head first off the cliff. Not knowing what to expect yet fully anticipating the unexpected. Their motto: to rather die trying.

About five years ago, two girls reached a certain fork on a road. Major decisions had to be made. One road, everyone seemed to favour. It's so familiar and accepted that it comes with an instruction booklet

Step 1: Find a good job

Step 2: Settle down to the lifestyle you were borned with

Step 3: Meet a nice, familiar guy and marry him.

Step 4: Start a family and live 'happily ever after'

It was thought to be the easiest, safest path ever. Everyone was living it, right?

The other road was slightly more controversial. It led to a boy and his most foreign of cultures. This meant breaking traditions, giving up families, moving across foreign cities and embracing the unknowns. The risk factor, if one has to be so scientific about it is 99.99%.

The first girl was my friend Tyra. She chose the boy. I watched in admiration as she risked everything she knew to passionately pursue what she felt was the love of her life.

The second girl was me. I was too afraid to choose my boy. But you already knew that, Gabe.

Five years later and I am ever slightly, the wiser.

I have learnt that you should never take a road just because everyone else was taking it. For the wrong person, 'safe' roads lead to dead ends. I mean look at me, the predictable path I took was a total disaster! I ended up having to pave my way with my own bare hands. I guess bejewelled high heels were not made for a road well travelled, huh!

One thing that is also hard to accept is that sometimes endings may never be what you expect them to be. My friend, Tyra, despite her admirable passion, did not end up with the boy. Up till this day, her hurt runs deep and she is most averse to falling in love.

It is a shame really because I personally believe that five years ago, it was Tyra who made the wisest decision of us two. If I could turn back time, I would have done what she did. Yes, Gabe, I would choose getting hurt over living with regrets, any day. Afterall, time heals all hurt. Regrets however, gets deeper as time goes by. Over time, that would hurt more.

Five years on and we are still affected by the choices we made. Tyra took her risks, got terribly hurt but at least, she knew her ending. I will never know mine and will always be bound to ask what ifs.... That is why, I am who I am today. People have accused me of taking on way too many crazy risks. They fear that I would get hurt.

If only they knew Gabe that taking risks would not hurt me as much as never knowing what could have been. One regret is enough for this girl's lifetime..

Passionately Risking,

Elle Sheri xo

*Excerpts from James Morrison's ''You Give Me Something"

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	Susanwrote: ...so a new development. I found out tonight Midnight is telling people we were never together...at all. As if I've been making it all up. Ah, dearest Elle, I'm so tired but can't sleep. Life is just...blah. I've just returned from a business meeting in Ohio and instead of feeling rested from being out of town my soul feels tired as if I'm out of time. I just want to sigh. Not cry--just a big long sigh. A lady at the meeting was talking about leaving for Rome next week and I turned positively green with envy. She'll be in Italy a total of 2 weeks. Ah envy...Maybe I need to fly half the way around the world to find me. I think I lost her in Rome a few years back and she's waiting desperately for my return. sounds like a good entry. ;) kindest wishes and hopes, Susan 13 Sept.
	Coralwrote: Just got home from College. I wasn't late [1st Hurdle] The first half of the day was good, and then in the afternoon we only had one lesson but I WAS SOOO BORED. I don't like the Tutor much cos she thinks I don't know what I'm getting myself in for by becoming a Paramedic. Was in McD's today, a friend of a friend came in. I don't even know said girl who walked in, and she went over to my Mate, and was like, "Raaa!" and then turns to me, puts her hand on my arm, and says, "Ohh, sorry, did I scare you too!" I was like, erm.. Cos I don't like people being real touchy feely, especially when I don't know them. Turns out she was gay. I thought she was. I SAW SOMEONE WHO I'VE NOT SEEN FOR ABOUT 5 YEARS TODAY! I was like, "OH.MY.ACTUAL.GOD!" It was sooo funny. She's well changed. Haha, what am I saying, so have I, frig me. Boys are just constantly annoying me. So do people who think they know everything. If you got my text you'll know what I'm talking about. That really took me over the edge. AS IF SHE WAS ME?! Meddling on the other side of things. I thought, JUST SAY THAT I'M WRONG. It annoys me further cos she speaks to me like, "Don't lose touch, text me" etc. Then she goes and does that. For me, whatever my Gf says goes, and is the truth. I think Alex is planning going out all next w/end. Cos the 'rents are away. As for coming to SF and Hawaii, you know I'd love to Haha. I'm missing ATL right now. I watched fricken NFL y/day, The ATL Falcons won I think. I never saw the end cos Tara came round so we were chatting for aages! I got Nursing Times on Sunday, and there's advertisements for jobs abroad. Asia, NZ & Australia. I wanna look at that when the time comes. I'm doing a you :D Got some h/w and gotta start tea, so we'll speak later Dah =] xxx 11 Sept.
	Billiewrote: Elle, Over time regrets fade. I have taken numerous risks and in some failed miserably. But in the end, I know that if I had taken a different path, I would not be the person I am today nor be where I am today. Sometimes, I personally think that sucks but most of the time, I accept that here is a pretty good place to be... so those failure were necessary. I still have a regret or two about some choices I have made but I know that I will look back on those decisions a few years from now and know that those decisions brought me to where ever I will be. In all likelihood, that will be a good thing. Billie 11 Sept.
	Alexwrote: Hola from San Antonio! Having the actual time of my life here. It´s amazing. I stood next to Pete Tong, i mean we are talking highlight of my entire life Right There! We are having a bit of a nightmare with cameras though, some places you are allowed them others you aren´t, we were allowed them Friday when we saw Pete but didn´t take them. Spend 12hours in Space yesterday where you aren´t allowed them but we took them! They chared us 2Euros for the privilige of holding them for us! Off to Cafe Mambo and Pacha again tonight, this time it´s Roger Sanchez. Saturday night we saw David Morales - he was ace :) Hope all is well xxxx 11 Sept.
	Irenewrote: Hi Elle....in the end .....i've understood that my boyfriend is what i really want!!! he's got all the things i need... i Love him and he's crazy for me....i think that's great and i can't ask for more........ :)) Kisses Irene xxx 11 Sept.
	Stephen Craig Rowewrote: Dear Elle, Though one regret is enough. Space is still only as deep as one makes it. Email me. I have a plan to make it better for MSN, MSN Spaces Live, MSNBC and the Foundation. The product concept I have in mind is from the visionary fine arts painter and poet that I am. It will work to ehrich and ehance all. Am a MSN kinda guy but am running out of time. I really want to have this here. Gimme a break and hook me up with some one real. How is your sister doing? Glad you are doing well. As ever be well. With love. Stephen 11 Sept.
	Coralwrote: Are you even up yet?! God, how rude is it that I had to be awake at 6.35am. Totally obsurred if you ask me :O Why is everybody going away and leaving me at College?! What is this?! God, Alex has been out every night. Proper dirty stop out Haha. Pacha, Café Mambo et al. Café Mambo is right around the corner. Y/Day they went out for 12 hours. But then they were bored and her feet were sore (Bless her) Haha. I was texting her w/ my situ, and she was texting me back saying she was gonna kick said persons head in when she returned, as was her mate. It was rather hilarious. Anyways I'll text you in a minute and write my name on the text Haha. xxx 11 Sept.
	Susanwrote: This left me in a fit of tears and sobs. I guess I'm slightly emotional. I finally found the time and inspiration to write something so that's a good thing I guess. I wish I had a happy story to leave with you but I don't. I've been thinking something very similar to this entry all day today. I was working thinking about 'the one' and was almost in tears. Everything is how it's supposed to be, right? I mean..things work out how they're supposed to--fate and all that good stuff. Here's to the stars. I hope you're ok out there! 11 Sept.
	Karenwrote: Hello again, I wanted to come by and touch base with you : ) As always your blog is entertaining and I realize i've missed it. Stay well hugs Karen 9 Sept.
	.wrote: Life's all about taking risks, sometimes it works out swimmingly & other times it can be disastrous, its just the way the cookie crumbles. Everything happens for a reason, so if at first you don't succeed, try & try again :) Is it just me or did I use way too many clichés there? :D 9 Sept.
	Jennifer Meganwrote: Elle, I agree completely. Maybe if more of us take the road less traveled.. we can wear a path in the grass for those after us to follow. :-) I hope you have a great weekend! ~jenn 9 Sept.
	T I N Awrote: Wow Elle, I feel as though this entry came from my own fingers. I can relate to it all too well. It has been obvious to me, since I came across your blog over a year ago, why I am so drawn to you. You and I are so much alike, sometimes it blows my mind and I find my life translated by your words. I don't know about you, but I'm ready for the next chapter as this one, is slowly coming to an end. It's been a while, but tonight, I feel like writing. I'm ready to expose my thoughts, that I have kept so hidden for a while now, through my blog. Thanks for the encouragement, once again. Cheers to choosing the road less traveled! ~Tina 8 Sept.
	Coralwrote: Dahling. Finley Quaye: Dice :: is a big tune. College today. I well love it. But I didn't find that hott guy. Oh.No THERE'S TIME YET! But there was a well wierdo on the Bus. He was gonna mug me for my iPod for a start. Then me and Sarah were chatting about not being able to sleep and then being well tired when we needed to get up, and he piped up with, "OH, JUST HAVE A SPLIFF BEFORE YOU GO TO BED!" Sarah replied with, "No.. I'm not into that sort of thing to be honest.." He had way to much cologne on as well. Trying to hard is not a good look! How dare he listen in to our convo though Haha! WHY ARE BOYS JUST GAW.DAMN IDIOTS?! xxx 7 Sept.
	Alexwrote: 'there's no fcuking room in the fcuking suitcase' my bag started off empty, even when i had packed but no, i had to go shopping and buy more stuff! LoL so now my bag - it's just not happening. But it's all good cos on Friday Night i'm gonna be partying with Pete Tong in Pacha, in Ibiza!!! Have a good week without me xxx 6 Sept.
	Korku Anomahwrote: How are things??? 5 Sept.
	(no name) wrote: Duchess you have been out of action for awhile. Been taking a lot of risks? ;=) FBK 4 Sept.
	Heather MacCarahanwrote: Life is nothing if you don't take risks. That is the way in which we learn who we are. 4 Sept.
	Coralwrote: SELAMAT PAGI Darling :D Yes, this James Morrison song rocks. It =] So yes, regarding the Bloggage. You know, it just dawned on me. That I took a risk with said ex Boy. For the whole of the time before I finally sucombed to temptation, I was all about, "No, we have nothing in common. It never works out" which turns into, "Well, you'll never know if you don't try, it could work out." Which then turns into, "I like him SO much I'm not even bothered if we have nothing in common" Oh how stupid I was. But then I wonder what would have happened if I never did try? We now know that we were all wrong together. But we wouldn't if we hadn't tried. "taking risks would not hurt me as much as never knowing what could have been" Much Love and Hugs, Coral xxx 4 Sept.
	Alexwrote: Alex & Coral here waiting for a plumber. He is not in the least attractive and so it is not in the least exciting. I am off to Ibiza on Thursday! We both read your blog with bated breath. I like that one so much, with one boy in particular i always go against the advice of my friends and always go with what my heart says - i get hurt everytime. I am getting used to it, and i think in a way i enjoy it cos when we are together we are the best two people in the world and so very happy. We can't just be friends though, we have to be something...watch this space. And Coral, well she "just doesn't give a shit about blokes" - her words not mine. Have a good day Lots of Love Alex & Coral xxx 4 Sept.
	(no name) wrote: hi elle ... this is ken ... apa khabar ? been following yur stories ... take good care my friend ... 4 Sept.

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